"Hollywood's callin' for the movie rights..."
May. 3rd, 2006
12:22 am
okay, so not all of you are adding my new journal.
whats with that? ![[info]](http://l-stat.livejournal.com/img/userinfo.gif){kind=small}
hollywasalllike
Apr. 24th, 2006
Apr. 21st, 2006
02:04 pm - dress dilemmas, video class, and atoosa.
so, im leaving in like 20 minutes to go to a wedding. im pretty pumped. which makes me weird i guess.
though, i had some dress dilemma. alison and i got up at 9 the other day and tried to find one, we looked til 2. nothing. well, nothing flattering.. i wanna chop my hips off. like, i hate them. fat... i could work with. hips, always there. annoying. but no, thats cool. w/e.
video class... ah, video class. fun. tiring, but fun. im gonna miss it.
oh, atoosa emailed me back. pretty cool. (just a ps...atoosa is the editor for seventeen magazine)but yeah she gave me 411 about internships, which is pretty cool. that would be amazing, actually.
i wanna write. but im pretty sure i have to be good at it before i can do it professionally.
- okay, well... im good at papers and hooplah except for history ones : / eek
Apr. 18th, 2006
12:51 am - great conversation, cute couples on the train, and starbucks.
i like someone i shouldnt
he has a gf
shes like 4 (exaggeration)
he intimidates me
alot.
but we have great conversation.
nothing wrong with being just friends.
i cant ever tell him this.
i just tried teaching alison and meghan how to belly dance.
it was cute.
this weekend i wanted to be a little kid again.
this weekend i wanted to grow up quicker.
i went to a party friday.
i was pretty drunk.
im jealous of all the cute couples on the train.
i love starbucks' double chocolate chip frapp.
i annoy myself.
Apr. 13th, 2006
12:48 pm - dance contests, balls of blood, and a stressful day ahead.
Last night I attended the Dance Contest. no, i did not participate. But it was interesting. lots of laughing. a girl ripped her pants. and i don't mean a little rip, this was a hardcore rip -- like in half. she has two seperate pant legs. poor girl. if that were me i would have started to cry.
anywayyy, last night i also had to tend to alisons ball of blood. uh huh, yeah. she got her industrial pierced like in january, and has cleaned it twice. fool.
today will be stressful. and i'm scared to start my day, but i suppose that i should.
*sigh*
Apr. 11th, 2006
12:14 am - bad moods, not wanting to move, and being really lame.
im in a mood. a bad one. i feel icky. -like sick.. stressed, headaches, tired. idk.
i dont really wanna go home.
but i dont wanna be here either.
..and i have no other choices sooo, i'll deal.
i don't want to do anything - homework.. move. haha.
so, i need a boy to be interested in me. i dont care if nothing comes of it. im just asking for a general attraction. its quite frustrating. makes me feel lame.
oh my god, im lame.
im soo lame. why haven't i seen the signs??
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annoyedApr. 7th, 2006
10:46 pm - jolanta, story boards, and shooting me... thrice.
im sensing the next week will be overwhelming. monday i hafta meet with jolanta bc i have to rewrite my civ paper -- not too happy. then i have makeup english work. a psych test. amazing amounts of video -- write an 8-10 pg script, a production schedule, a story board, aaand i have to film and edit another project.
shoot me shoot me shoot me.
i cant wait til easter... bc that = terryville. which = good times.
aaand, check.
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stressedApr. 5th, 2006
07:58 pm - friend criteria, beig fake, and no no drama... no no no no drama.
so, i havent really been there for some of my high school friends -- well, i dont really talk to any of them really anymore, lately just trisha. am i a bad friend? is it cause i dont really like them and i thought i had? idk. i think im the type who doesnt really want.. or need for that matter, very many friends. a friend for me is hard to find bc i get annoyed so easily. if i dont get along with you, cant start AND hold convcersations with you then whats the fucking point. thats just being fake. am i wrong?
and i can not handle many types of people. i cant stand most of the people i went to school with. then again.. my best friends in high school talked shit about me, and dramas a big no no if you we're gonna be friends.
ugh... people.
Mar. 27th, 2006
01:35 pm - break, history, and forgetting brian exsisted... sorta
spring break... i actually enjoyed just being in terryville. which shocked me. but it was definately fun and i wish i was there longer. i just keep thinking about how awesome this summer will be.
buuut, i gotta concentrate on school for now. blahhh. i've been doing pretty freaking good actually. cept world civ, but i always sucked at history. w/e. im not too worried about it.
today i was thinking about the brian thing again, and if it weren't for all the crap hes left here, i would have forgotten about him already.
Mar. 22nd, 2006
Mar. 13th, 2006
04:57 pm - goodness, being souped, and orange juice.
hahaha, my life is so awkward.
anyway. im pumped for break. lots of goodness. sleepovers at trishas, lasertag, meghans coming for a day or twoish, gettin my hair did, seeing katie, finally., my amazing mattress = happiness on its own.
im mad souped. ; )
im sick, but i think its going away. 3 cheers for dayquil and orange juice.
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excitedMar. 9th, 2006
Mar. 7th, 2006
08:36 pm - goodness, pierced face, and cvs... a second home.
so ive had a good week.
a very good week.
i got my nose pierced : )
(sorry its so big, im new to this picture posting dealio.)
im not so sure why im having such a good week. it just... is.
ps. my second home is now CVS. ive been there everyday this week. god help me.
happy07:09 pm
okay seriously why do i not know how to post pictures on this beast?! i have photobucket... and im in rich text mode.
ps. i hate my life.
Feb. 27th, 2006
09:28 pm - male attention, male intimidation, and he who mus'nt be named.
so, since brians been out of the picture boys have been giving me attention. and then i find one that i like the attention from. i mean, i dont so much like HIM as i do knowing hes around, willing to talk and what not. (oh god.. did i just say what not??) anyway.. he kind of intimidates me a little. and i feel as though i'm getting to that annoying stage... which, hey. that was quick. haha.
idk. it would be so much easier to decribe if i could use names. buuuut. no, that cant happen. damn livejournal and all who read it.
and i would randomly like to add that i miss terryville...
okay, not so much terryville, more like its inhabitants.. and only some. haha
Feb. 24th, 2006
03:39 pm - the .5 bit, the anti-holly, and getting back the rhythm
okay, so for the past 2.5 weeks (ya i know you liked that .5 bit) i've been a little out of my mind.
first it was because brian hadn't called. then we got in a fight, then he didnt call... or return calls, not even on valetines day.
theeeen, i broke up with him over his machine (which by the way i felt guilty about until i learned he'd been cheating, yeah... i know.)
then of course i was distraught bc hes an ass, and a liar and all that good stuff... so i started skipping class and not doing homework, being generally in a bad mood.
then there was the i hafta change everything about me thing. ya know, dying hair, wearing different clothes, the "im gonna be anorexic" thing which lasted for about 3 hours, and basically trying to be the anti-holly.
but now, i'm getting back into rhythm again. cuz i realized i wasn't the one who fucked it up, i mean i wasn't perfect about it, but no one is. and im not the one who should feel guilty. though i know the heartless bastard doesn't feel guilty either.
eh, what can you do?
optimisticFeb. 20th, 2006
08:34 pm
i feel pathetic.
and i want to cry.
and i feel guilty.
and not wanted.
and helpless.
idk
i hate break ups.
but i also hate when ppl treat me like an ass. holly you okay? how are you doing.
i dont need your sympathy, leave it alone please.
k thanks
Feb. 19th, 2006
Feb. 16th, 2006
12:59 pm - concepts, guilt, and giving up.
is picking up the phone really such a hard concept?
im starting not to care, but at the same time i feel guilty
and i hate feeling like im just giving up.
...but i like to think he gave up long before i did.
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